Better and Worse

On Sunday, I developed a rather substantial chill, which I assume means I also suffered from a fever. It had me down and out for almost seven hours.  This cold-flu thing is really a bother!  I did not go to work today although I felt pretty good when I awoke.  But, once I got out of bed, I found myself a touch wobbly and decided driving and contaminating my coworkers was not a good idea. After lunch I did find myself napping for a couple of hours so clearly the body is not ready for the office.

I did something very tough today. I notified FaceBook that Mary's FB page should be converted to a memorial because she died.  They have a mechanism to do that so it is happening now. I also went to change my profile to "widowed" but the software says my relationship to Mary will be severed. That I cannot do. So I haven't changed it. 

Also, I read the original blog for the month of July 2009. That was a good time. At the beginning of the month, Mary was feeling pretty darn good after the liver surgery. But then the radiation and chemo started and her strength was sapped away day by day.  I know she enjoyed what we did--just 'normal' stuff, Farmers Market followed by breakfast with friends, cooking at home and taking care of the dogs. Such simplicity but such joy for her--and for me. 

If you'd like to revisit July of 2009, click here.

My Alaska cruise friends jumped into help these last few days.  MaryR asked if there was something she could do for me while I was feeling so poorly.  I asked her to pick up some milk and saltines. I had Campbell's chicken noodle soup that needed saltines and the milk is for lattes and cereal.  She commented that I had given her the same shopping list in the early '90s when Mary was still living in Arizona and I was down with a bug of some sort.  Ingrid was shocked when I said I had Campbell's chicken noodle soup in the house. She delivered a supply of home-made German chicken noodle soup to keep me going.  I have several meals left. 

From 2010 Alaska

All in all, I am feeling better. I see the eye doctor on Wednesday and I assume that will let me sleep flat again. I am still sleeping in an upright position.  And, I am hoping I don't need to see my primary care physician because the flu-cold thingy will be gone! 

Ciao, 

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