A Quick Note

Although I am doing well overall, some days are downers. This last weekend was fine but the Monday I hit a downer. I just sort of stayed home and let some (perhaps more than some) of my feelings about Mary's death wash over me. It had the feeling of depression, loneliness, and some degree of despair. I was surprised by these feelings for I did not expect them at all. In the group session on Tuesday night, one of the counselors suggested that I might have needed that time for I have been so busy, I may have been blocking the grieving process.

Just like the 6 month anniversary on the 8th, I was pretty much past those feelings in less than a day. Such is grief.

My bike is in the shop waiting for parts and I am feeling the need to get back to exercise. My kids and I have set holiday plans and I am feeling very, very good about those plans. I got a nice gift from the IRS because I had overwithheld substantially last year--the byproduct of my income being down a huge amount due to the severity of the recession in electronics last year. This year should be more normal. Yes I filed under an extension. I was a bit out of sorts last April.

I hosted a dinner party last Sunday for my friends from Germany. The prior weekend I attended s charity dinner for the San Jose Museum. Of course, I sat in one of United's metal tubes for a total of 22 hours between Tuesday and Saturday to attend an event in China.

I've done The Onion and Farmers Market the last two weekends meeting MaryR and/or Ingrid depending on our personal schedules.

And, I am doing my two weekly grief sessions: on individual and one group session. I find them both to be extremely beneficial.

Ciao

P